Thats right people! I went to Kohls today because I have waited my whole life to have an excuse to wear clothes from the maternity section-I will be wearing these long after the Baby is due because whoever invented jeans with a huge elastic band is genious! Any excuse for me to be comfy during the day!
I published this on my family blog. I had ran out the day after I had found out that I was pregnant because one thing that I have always had a hard time doing is passing by the maternity section in any store. It was always so painful for me & finally I felt so proud to be able to march right up & pick out an outfit. I did not even try it on. I did not care how it looked I just wanted to finally belong to the "club". The group of women who had all experienced shopping for clothes to fit their expanding tummy.
I drove to Kohls on Saturday after Calvin had passed because I did not want to wear maternity clothes. It was just too painful. I could not however fit back into my jeans yet so I thought I would purchase a few new things. I cried in the car on the way, I cried in the dressing room & I pulled over as I headed home to weep some more. I was overcome with sadness. A hole inside of me as deep as the grand canyon because I would never be able to enter the maternity section again. I felt like it was so unfair that my memories of being pregnant had to be tarnished with such a terrible ending. I will never be able to walk past that part of any store again without remembering my sweet baby boy. 
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