This was the last post that I put together the night before contractions began.....
My water broke at 21 weeks & 1 day. I thought for sure that I would have given birth within 24 hours. I was so thankful when I was able to come home from the hospital but was also so anxious about the days to come. I can feel Calvin moving inside of me and at first I was not sure if it was a blessing or a curse because a part of me wanted to detach from pregnancy just in case. I have been able to enjoy his movements over the past 10 days & have tried to talk to him encouraging him to hang on just a little longer.
In 7 days if contractions begin then I will deliver with the possibility of him being able to survive. All I want is for him to have a chance to live. Before my water broke I was stressing on how to decorate for my baby shower. What my invitations would look like. What flavor my cake would be. All of that seems like a blur now & so miniscule. I know that being able to not sweat the small stuff, being content with my circumstances is a blessing that I am able to enjoy now, I am praying that I can remember this feeling as I move forward in life & not sweat the small stuff in the future.
My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken. (Psalm 62:1-2)
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