The dr. came in & I can remember him saying something about when his twins were born to the nurse & I thought what did he say? why is he saying that? It was as if I was in a dream & I could hear them talking but my thoughts were louder than their words.
He asked me to grab my knees and curl up & push like I was..."yeah thats how" is what he said just as Calvin came out. I barely pushed what seemed like half a push & he was here in the Dr's hands being handed to the nurse. It was 4:09 am. It was so quick & now what do I do? I knew I wanted to see him & hold him but I did not know if he was alive or if he had already passed. I did not know if he would look like a normal baby with fingers & toes or if he would be blue or if he would cry. I was so scared of the unknown.
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