I woke up to the nurse telling me that she was going to check my cervix to see if I was dilated. I stared at the clocked & realized that I had slept several hours & could not believe that time had sped up when it seemed to be passing so slowly before.
The nurse said I was ready. While I slept my cervix had dilated. She said “I can feel his head”. I waited my whole life to hear that sentence & all I could think was “NO!-PLEASE NO! GIVE ME MORE TIME”! I could no longer feel Calvin as I had before because he had moved into the birthing canal & I was numb. I knew we could no longer wait. I said to Jason “did you hear her say she was calling the dr. because it is time to push” he said “yeah” & sat up wiping his eyes as he had also slept a little. We both sat unsure of what was happening next but knowing that it would not be exciting or fulfilling as we had once pictured it.
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